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Transparent Existence
02:05
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You are the sunlight, the sunrest.
You are a night's dream.
When I fear of waking in a world.
I'm not familiar with.
Can you just hold on and be strong?
I don't want this to end.
No, not this way.
Bestow, be still, wait here, until the storm clears.
Live on, live long, or don't leave at all.
I want you to see.
The man you turned into me.
So I guess it's bye for now.
I'll feel your light when you come down.
Sleep sound and be at peace.
Forever keep the memories.
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Esoteric
04:44
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Before the lights come off at night, my head spins. In my perspective, I waste my time, thinking what could go wrong. Making up a future in my head, that will never come to pass.
Blistered shaking palms, constantly adapting to my current situation, an introduction to my disconnection. A foreign concept, a veil that masks what lies beneath. I'll bite my tongue and grind my teeth.
When we fell from the stars, were we built to fall apart? My naked eye can only see so far. I'm consumed all the time, confused by thoughts in my mind that aren't really there.
Bending over backwards, never moving foreword, can anyone else relate? I've been holding onto the warmth I felt, when having you around was all I cared about.
When I run away, you'll find me through the trees. The weight im carrying, will drown with me in my sleep.
Wanderer, have you been listening to the wind that grazes your ear? The sounds of the world, the earth will turn, and when the smoke clears.
You'll be gasping for air, incompetently, losing body functionality.
Console me when I'm conflicted, renown in my release. I'm just trying to be accepted for my personal beliefs. I'm not a marytr, just a victim of this personal disease. It's not the end not even close.
With hands over me, security where I sleep, communication and company, the little things that hold the largest meaning.
I have a greater appreciation, when it comes to my foundation. A single act of sincerity.
Blistered shaking palms, constantly adapting to my current situation, an introduction to my disconnection. A foreign concept, a veil that masks what lies beneath. I'll bite my tongue and grind my teeth. The air I breathe.
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Concerned I'll follow through with my plans, inside my room I animate the scene.
My behavior correlates the expressive nature, of a child in the sand, when the waves wash in.
Steady pace, I tread my feet, distancing myself along. I've figured out the problem, ignored the thoughts I should have listened now just whispers in the dark.
I've allowed these tempting thoughts.
Persuading, intoxicating, a mindless addiction. I had no vision, no perception of the way I was, until you opened up to me.
No relief, atonement, forgiveness, retribution.
If the problem starts with me, how do I fix the world from drowning?
Will we all find this release? The burden that keeps burning.
I find, that solace is certain if we love what we're doing.
I just haven't found that yet.
(Ethan Gillette)
I want to believe, in a place, that does more than keep me warm. I want to feel the fire, burn through me, a never ending light that helps me find my way.
Somewhere between these streets, the setting sun, the night time breeze, calms me. Indirectly, I discreetly think that if my life were any different would I still feel that something is missing.
I've been here before....
The growing pains and the ache for change.
With every word I speak, every breath i take, my stomach turns on me, I'd like to leave this place. When I'm broke, can't keep my eyes open. Lift my heart up, put colors into motion.
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Heartfelt Motion
01:43
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With heartfelt motion
I search for my bones scattered
In the ebb and flow of sunlight
Generated by those I've known
We end the day
Comforted by the etchings of what we've learned through growth.
Thoughts of eternity fit as a mask
Echoing sounds of our lives;
Time rings loud in an empty mind,
And the void is filled with flames;
But I stand here today,
A genuine monument to all of our growth
In changing myself, I've seen everything that will come to be, and to speak as if I were the same, a disservice to all we've seen.
I've become the distance;
I am the solace in tracks that will forever stretch on and never meet.
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Depravity
03:58
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Framework that kept us bound together.
Early mornings that I spent, waking up by your side.
For all my life I wanted what was best for you.
Your interests and your vision never included mine.
Words are just perspective, my emotions are still relative.
To all the damage done inside me.
All the lyrics and the imagery, I try to capture, to entail my frailty and my selfless seclusion.
The real illusion is in your mind, the entitlement and all the lies.
You've strung along a string that you can't tie.
Our mortal selfish ways, they set off greed and end in pain. Our instinct as humans is sympathy. Then for some of us, it's a game to break your trust. I've been played too many times, it's starting to become clear.
Paint me a picture with no color, give me a clock where time stands still. Have you had enough of me? Because I've had enough of you.
Grant me life, that I'll give purpose. Show me compassion, confide in me. Don't you understand the gravity of the situation?
The depravity of my indiscretion. Immoral illusions imbedded in my brain, they take me to a place where my bones may lie but I must become the light in a darkened world. Open up hallways and not just doors. Seek for figures in mirrors that look just like mine. Divulge the root of our anger and keep forgiveness nearby.
Chorus
Impossible, to change your mind.
Plea your innocence, knowing all along.
You're the hypocrite, disbanding ties.
To your family and place the blame on me.
You'll do anything to escape.
Confrontation, the confusion you ensue will always consume you.
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The key above our bed-frame that caused you to twist and turn, on the floor you lay, the sirens sink in. Your leg would slowly collapse and decay, the years I watched you evaporate.
Behind the stained glass window pane, your aching body was just the beginning.
Keep me close before you vanish
Tremble, your body rejected, years of waiting, fighting and staying alive. Come to find your fading but the light in your heart is still stronger than your eyes.
Every moment we captured, felt like the hands of a mother. Who always lifted my spirits.
Time's up let go, the voice that let me know to help understand your passing. Is the same one I search for in my head but I can no longer hear it.
(Caleb Gesicki)
Your presence lingers, intertwines, the fabric of my being. My life had meaning, when you survived. With every inch they lowered you down, I promised to myself. That you would hear these words, no matter what. (That you would hear these words, no matter what)
Beyond the sun, we set a course, further than the shores.
Thinning in my sights.
Your never ending story, which took you all your life to write. The balance, composure, when you're the author your hands get tired.
Your presence lingers, intertwines, the fabric of my being. My life had meaning, when you survived. With every inch they lowered you down, I promised to myself. That you would hear these words, no matter what.
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